Sunny Fader

HEADING HOME  - PART ONE
NEW DELHI

(For the full story read The Gainesville Years, 1 through 14)

I came to Bangladesh alone a week ahead of the film crew to do my research and begin writing the shooting script. Now it was time for me to leave—alone. The crew still needed to pick up some shots to complete the story, but I had to get back to the university. The fall term was just a couple weeks away and I needed time to prepare for the two news writing labs I would be teaching.

I had a choice of routes: through Hong Kong or through New Delhi. There were unbelievably good shopping bargains to be had in Hong Kong, I was told, but no matter how good the bargains, I didn’t have the discretionary funds to take advantage of them. However that wasn’t the only reason I chose to return to the States by way of New Delhi.

When I was a young, romantically inclined teenager I came across an issue of the National Geographic Magazine that extolled the wonders of a magnificent building, one of the Seven Wonders of the World. It was not just the beauty of the structure that struck me, but the story behind it. That building was the Taj Mahal, and the story was about an Indian prince who was so aggrieved by the death of his favorite wife that he built this remarkable, unbelievably beautiful structure as a tribute to her and a testament to his love.

As a teenager I was moved by this tale; as an adult it still held sway over me...but I never dreamed I would one day get the chance to see the exquisite architectural work of art it inspired.   I may never have an opportunity like this again, I told myself.  Putting my financial insecurity temporarily on hold, I decided to layover in New Delhi for a couple days on my way home, and take a side trip to Agra to see this sacred tribute to undying love.

Not widely traveled at this stage of my life, I asked our travel agent to avoid hotels usually frequented by Americans and book me into a place that would give me a real sense of the country. I wanted to “experience” India.  In theory this sounded like a good idea. It never occurred to me that I would be isolating myself; that I would be eliminating any chance for the kind of  camaraderie that often blossoms among tourists from similar cultures traveling abroad--a particularly desirable option for someone traveling alone.


In compliance with my request, I was booked into a hotel that catered to Indian salesmen and travelers.  Except for a handful of frugal-minded German tourists and, of course, me, all the guests appeared to be Indian, and all, including the Germans, seemed absorbed in their own itineraries.  If they acknowledged me at all, it was with the clear caveat that I was not to mistake their nod as an invitation for conversation.  While the social aspect of my stay left something to be desired, the accommodations were adequate for my brief visit.

There was one challenge my decision to make this short trip alone created that I had not expected. It is probably no longer true, but 35  years ago there was a prevailing concept in India that all Americans were rich.  A rich American woman traveling alone, which was, of course, how I was perceived, was a magnet for sidewalk venders eager to sell her their little piece of India to take  home. When I attempted to do a little sightseeing on foot they descended on me, all smiles, beseeching me to inspect their wares.  I rejected their offer as graciously as I could, and sometimes this worked.  But sometimes the men would turn hostel, nasty. They seemed to take my rejection personally. So I stopped walking out on my own.

And then there was my cab ride from the airport.  The cab driver was friendly enough—too friendly. Once he realized I was traveling alone, he turned on the charm. At first it seemed like just an over-earnest sales pitch. He wanted me to hire him for the duration my stay. He would be happy to show me around. Something about his effusive manner made me uncomfortable. I thanked him, but declined. That is when he really turned on the charm.

He produced some letters, ostensibly recommendation from satisfied “American Women” who had used his services. The fact that he kept turning around to talk to me while wending his way through the city’s chaotic traffic did little to advance his cause. Nor did his not so subtle flirtatious remarks and suggestive references to the other services he could provide beyond that of tour guide. In hindsight, I doubt he was talking about sexual benefits. He was probably just attempting to be  charming. But at the time it made me very uncomfortable. And the more he talked, the more uncomfortable I became.

I was relieved when we finally reached my hotel, until he insisted on taking my luggage inside.  He stood by me as I checked in.  When he picked up my bags to take them to my room I put my foot down. I had had enough. Finally, safe in my room, I took a deep breath. Then the phone rang. It was my eager cab driver again. He knew I was tired from my trip, so he wanted to reassure me that if  later I regretted being so hasty in turning down his generous offer, not to worry. He would call me in the morning…in case, after thinking it over, I changed my mind. I assured him that I would not change my mind. I had made other plans. Not trusting that this would stop him, and concerned that he knew my room number, I made sure I was up and out of my room early the next morning.

I made arrangements with the hotel to purchase a train ticket for me to Agra.  In the meantime, I wanted to see a bit of New Delhi.  The desk clerk found a driver for me who turned out to be remarkable. It wasn’t just that he provided me with an excellent overview of the city, and seemed very knowledgeable about all of the places he showed me. What I found remarkable was the fact that we were three quarters of the way through our tour, with me chatting away, with him nodding and smiling… before I realized he didn’t understand a word I was saying. When the hotel clerk said this cab driver spoke English…he meant that he could tell me about the sites in English—apparently a script he had memorized. My driver didn’t actually speak or really understand English. But it was a great tour, and he was a pleasant chap.  I laughed at myself for taking so long to catch on, but I thoroughly enjoyed the day.


One of my favorite sites in New Delhi was the Laxminarayan Temple. Another view of The Laxminarayan Temple





Yes, that's me. 36 years ago. And yes, that is a swastika, which long before Hitler adopted it, was, and coninues to be, a sacred Hindu symbol denoting luck and good fortune, and honesty, truth and purity.

 One of my favorite stops that afternoon was the Laxminarayan Temple, also known as the Birla Temple, a three-storied structure built in the northern or Nagara style of Hindu temple architecture. The temple is adorned with carvings depicting scenes from Hindu mythology. Construction was begun in 1933 and completed in 1939 when it was, according to my driver, “inaugurated by Mahatma Gandhi.” My driver was very proud that at the time Gandhi stipulated that the Temple would not be restricted to Hindus, and that people from every caste would be allowed inside.

As he showed me around the temple, the young man explained that Hinduism, one of the world's oldest religions, has many forms.  It is an inclusive religion that respects other religions, and over the centuries, as in the case of Buddhism, has sometimes incorporated the wisdom  and moral teachings of other faiths.

The main temple is spread over 7.5 beautifully landscaped acres and houses statues of Lord Narayan and Hindu Goddess Lakshmi. (Thus, the temple's  name.) There are other small shrines dedicated to Lord Shiva, Lord Ganesha and Hanuman. And, to bear out what my guide had told me, there is also a shrine dedicated to Lord Buddha. The left side temple shikhar (dome) houses Devi Durga, the Hindu goddess of Shakti, the power.

Later that afternoon we drove into "Old Delhi" and my driver pointed out the Red Fort.  He told me that they had evening light shows during which the history of the Fort is dramatically told.  There would be an English version presented that night.  When we got back to the hotel I asked the desk clerk to purchase a ticket and arrange for a cab to take me.




The Red Fort is shaped like an octagon, and covers over 254 acres. It derives its name from the extensive use of red sandstone on the massive walls that surround the fort.

The cab dropped me off and I began the long walk, past the vendors, towards the entrance.  One after another, the men lining the street with their wares vied for my attention, thrusting their goods in my face...masking their aggression with a smile.  I smiled back, shaking my head, and kept walking.

At some point it must have become apparent that "the rich American Lady"  wasn't going to buy anything, or even stop to inspect their wares. I felt the mood change. The men's gracious facade disappeared.  In its place I sensed a subtle hostility.  I didn't need to understand the language to realize they were talking about me: the unflattering pantomime exaggerating my walk, the sarcastic tone of a comment that triggered laughter.

Once within the  Fort's walls, as the light show began, the discomfort I was feeling outside vanished.
I became completely caught up in the experience.  It was astonishing. The history of the fort unfolded in beautiful, music-accompanied prose.  Colored lights brushed the walls and alcoves,  highlighting the areas that were the historic backdrop for the story being told, and bringing the saga to life. While I have no pictures from the light show, here are some views of the Red Fort.        

                                      






When the light show ended I exited with the crowd.  As  instructed by my cab driver, I headed to where he had dropped me off .  He said I would be able to get a cab there to take me back to my hotel.  As soon as I was outside  the discomfort I felt earlier returned. It was dark now. The merchants were gone, but there were still men lingering along the street. I tried to stay close to the group.  It might have been my imagination, or the hour, but I felt as if I was being watched by hostile eyes.

 I finally reached the cab stand and, giving the dispatcher the name of my hotel, requested a cab. He mumbled something I did not understand, and motioned me aside, then quickly ushered the couple who had been behind me into the waiting cab.  I tried again, and again he motioned me aside, admonishing me to be patient as he hustled another group into a waiting cab.  I watched as each couple or group and even a few single men were dispatched; I watched as  the number of waiting cabs dwindled. Finally out of patience…and frankly, more than a little scared as the area emptied and the Fort’s exterior lights were shut off... I demanded that the dispatcher put me in a cab.  He ignored me as he put the last couple into the last waiting cab.

“Are there more cabs coming,” I asked. “No” he replied. I panicked. “How will I get back to my hotel?” “I told you, Lady" he said,"I told before... none of the cabs will take you. Your hotel is too close. You must take that.” He pointed across the street to a bicycle-powered rickshaw.  I know now that I should have matched my request for a cab with some rupees, but I didn't understand Indian economics then.




These rickshaws are in Dhaka, but they are like the rickshaw I took back to the hotel that night from the Red Fort


 Defeated, I crossed the street and engaged the rather seedy, underfed young man who was standing next to the rickshaw to take me to my hotel.  We moved at a snail’s pace through the dark streets.  It seemed like an eternity before we reached the hotel, and I was charged double what I had paid  the cab that took me to the Fort.  Still I have no regrets.  For a couple hours that evening I stepped back in time, into another India.   An India that was vibrant, opulent.  Filled with violence, perhaps, but an India where poets were as honored as warriors, and where princes made war, but also created beauty...remnants of which are still with us today.

The main reason I had come to New Delhi was to see the Taj Mahal, but even with the help of the hotel staff, I was unable to purchase the necessary train ticket to Agra. The clerk was apologetic. It was tourist season. There were just no train tickets left in my time frame. I was heartbroken. Then a miracle: The clerk mentioned my plight to a Pakistani couple staying at the hotel who, happily, spoke English. The man was attached to Pakistan's diplomatic service. They too wanted to visit the Taj Mahal and were unable to get train tickets to Agra, so they had arranged to rent a car. And if I wished, I could share it with them.



Next: The Taj Mahal--The final installment of my Bangladesh-New Delhi adventures

 

GOOD-BYE BANGLADESH.


(For the full story read The Gainesville Years, 1 through 13) 

A busy life and a new book have made it difficult for me to keep up this  blog, something I intend to do more faithfully in the coming year. In order to start out fresh, I need to close my Gainesville years, which ended up being primarily about my job in Bangladesh. Once I opened the gate to those memories, the stories poured out. They were so rich I couldn’t seem to close that chapter. But, it is time. Yet I cannot leave Bangladesh without sharing one more memory; one that, even after all these years, is still fresh in my mind. I met a young girl on that trip who touched my heart so deeply I went so far as to speak to Doctor Coddington about the possibility of adopting her.

I can still see her face in my mind’s eye; especially her ever- smiling eyes. Unfortunately, after all these years, no matter how hard I try I cannot seem to recall her name. It remains hidden somewhere in my memory, irretrievable. I will call her Amodita, which means “happiness” in Bengali, for she was truly the happiest child I have ever known. She grew up in abject poverty, yet she was filled with joy, and her curiosity—about all things—was insatiable. Language was no barrier. She always managed to make herself understood, and to understand.

Amodita appeared with some other children our very first day in her village. The others soon lost interest, but not her. She became our shadow. When it came time for us to go, I had become so attached to her that I found it difficult to leave her behind. All I could think of was what a waste her life would be trapped in this poverty, with no chance to get the education that would enable her to blossom.

I became obsessed with the idea of trying to adopt her. But Dr. Coddington, ever the wise soul, made me see that, while well intended, doing this would be an act of selfishness. I had not, he pointed out, given any thought to what impact removing Amodita from her community would have on her. She was bright, yes. But had I considered how traumatic it would be for her to be removed from all she was familiar with and plopped down in the United States, among people who would see her as a foreigner…whose customs and language and values differed so drastically from hers? And had I thought about what her loss would mean to her family? The qualities I saw in Amodita that made me want to rescue her were the very qualities that would enable her to help her family survive, and perhaps even thrive in her native culture.

He made his point. I didn’t pursue the idea any further.

And now:, meet Amodita



Amodita, second from left, with welcoming committee.



Amodita and her radiant smile.

Amodita's energy and enthusiasm were contagious. You could not look at her without smiling.



Amodta was always filled with questions for Fran and me.



I often think of Amodita and her joyful smile and quick mind and wonder where she is today.  She was just a couple years younger than my daughter, so she would be in her late forties.  I wonder how her life turned out.  Was she able to help her family to a better life?  Did she get a chance to get an education?  Did she marry? Have children?  I also cannot help but wonder what would have happened if I had not let Dr. Coddington dissuade me and had been able to adopt her.  How would that have changed the course of her life?

One thing I do know.  She taught me about happiness--that it doesn't depend on what one has, but on how one chooses to embrace life.  Thank you Amodita.

I made one stop on my way home.  Next, the final post of my Gainesville Years:  A dream fulfilled.   



The men and boys from the village check  us out.



Village women take a moment from their unending  daily chores to watch  some of our filming.

The Sultan's Palace

Fishing in the Sultan's Lake


According to a Time magazine report  August 2nd, 1971, "The Hindus, who account for three-fourths of the refugees and a majority of the dead, have borne the brunt of the Pakistani military's hatred." But all the violence against the Bengalis were not committed by the West Pakistan military.  There was extensive  sectarian violence perpetrated against Bengali minorities by Hindu-hating Bengali nationalists. One of the saddest stories I came across during my trip bore witness to this.

I was on my way to Tongee with Dr. Coddington when we passed an obviously once grand building in ruins.   I asked Dr. Coddington what it was. He said it has been the home and hospital of a much beloved Hindu doctor who used to serve the area—Hindus and Muslims alike.  One night, during the madness of the war, Dr. Coddington said, a gang of Bengali Muslims attacked the building and brutally slaughtered the doctor, his family, and the hospital staff.  The irony  of this tragedy is that in feeding their irrational hatred of Hindus, these men deprived themselves and all the other people in the area of a  caring, compassionate doctor and the only medical care available in the region.  

But back to the war.  West Pakistan  failed to gather international support, and found itself fighting a lone battle with only the United States providing any external help. (The United States and China were the only two Countries that supported West Pakistan.) Still, with little substantive resistance from the defenseless population of East Pakistan it looked as though nothing could stop the aggressors.

As the war continued, eight to ten million Bengali refugees fled  to India. Alarmed by the massive influx of refugees, India decided to enter the war, but it was not until the Pakistani Air Force made a preemptive attack on Indian forces that Indian troops finally crossed the border.  Suddenly the Pakistani army found itself being attacked from the east by the Indian army, the north and east by guerrillas, and from all quarters by East Pakistan's civilian population. Once India entered the war, it was all over in eleven days, and the world's 139th country officially came into existence. It is interesting to note that the only objection came from China...and that while the United States finally recognized the new nation, it was the last country to do so.

Forty years later the scars of that war are still raw.  A few years ago another mass grave was found, rekindling the anger in Bangladesh towards Pakistan and the people in their own country who have failed to  pursue justice for the millions killed and maimed in what most of the world, albeit many with reluctance, admit was a genocide.  

As for our country, forty years ago, fully aware of the genocide that was taking place, our government chose to make an expedient rather than moral decision on what should be done.  It was not the first time, nor the last time we acted in such a manner, but given our complex relation with Pakistan over the past forty years, I wonder if those responsible for that decision would still feel it was justified. My brother says that I am not a realist.  The world just doesn't work the way I would like it to.  He  is probably right.  But I keep hoping that some day this country which I dearly love will grow up, and become the kind of  nation most of its citizens think it is.